I didn't put things in an order. I just wrote them in this order.
I heard Sammus late in the year...like on Christmas Day
having some alone time listening to my podcasts. Listening to Another M
reminds me of this sort of heroic melancholy I used to feel while playing
Metroid as a kid. I always felt gloomed out about Samus’ story and how she was
all alone exploring and fighting all these monsters. Most chiptune music I’ve
heard hasn’t really been my thing, but these beats are so tight. They say:
“Another M is a seven-track EP that retells the story of
intergalactic bounty hunter Samus Aran from the classic Nintendo game Metroid
as she is imagined by producer, rapper, and feminist warrior Sammus. Using the
vehicle of self-produced hip hop beats inspired by the game’s soundtrack in
combination with heartfelt lyrics and delivery, Sammus takes listeners on a
journey from Samus’ lonely childhood with the Chozo race to her epic battle
against the evil Mother Brain.”
On the same day I found Sammus, I also started researching
how to make my own chiptunes and am trying to find my copy of Metroid for
Gameboy in my closet.
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2. Downtown Boys // Malportado Kids
Earlier this year, I got invited to a basement show at a
house I’ve never been to in Brooklyn. I missed most of the show because I’m
anxious as hell and it keeps me from leaving the house on time. I was just
climbing down the dark stairs which were barely lit up by Malportado Kids’
projections on the wall behind them as they were playing. I didn't know much
about them at that point but right away I knew I was where I was supposed to
be. Since then we’ve played a few shows with Downtown Boys and have become band
friends. I told Victoria, the vocalist in both bands, how I aspire to be as
poignant and unmistakably passionate as her with the things I say in between
songs but she pointed out me that my style of stage banter/song explaining is
just as meaningful so that's cool. <3 o:p="">3>
(photo by joe mccann)
Back in March, I went to the release show for his comedy
album Waiting For 2042 at Union Hall with the friend who, years ago,
told me he was one of the so very few stand up comedians that was actually
funny. Janeane Garofalo, Ted Leo and one or two others opened for him. The
album title refers to the year white people in America will be the minority
according to statistics. Heh heh.
5. Limp Wrist at Chicago’s Fed Up Fest
It was supposed to be a surprise! To keep the bros out, it
had been unannounced til a few hours before they played. I found out the night
before though. It’s been a while since I went so nuts at a show that my glasses
fell off, since my shirt got so soppin’ wet I had to take that shit off and put
it in a plastic bag (that I ended up forgetting about for a day -- PU!) and
then the new shirt quickly became uselessly soaked too. This was one of my
favorite weekends this year.
6. Kendrick Lamar - i
There were some rough ass weeks in November and December
that only felt manageable partly by watching this video and listening to this
song on repeat, and singing along to the chorus: “I love myself/One day at a
time/Sun gon’ shine”. I struggle to tell people I love them. It’s quite
unfathomable to tell myself. This is a 'fake it til you make it' situation.
7. My highlights of hilarious things I’ve posted on
Tumblr that helped me get through the year:
They were on my list the last time I made a top 10. Still my
favorite band. We played a few shows with them this year, most recently, at
Glasslands with Mary Timony’s Ex Hex. It feels cool to be inspired by friends.
According to Spotify, all the songs on this EP were in my top 10 list of songs
I listened to the most this year.
9. Friends & Community
Growing up in the racist-ass, small-minded town of
Horseshit, Arkansas, I would have never thought I’d find myself surrounded by
people who actually like and care about me. I purged a lot from my real life
contact list. The “friends” who had no respect for me as a black person because
they are having a such a great life being colorblind and willfully ignorant. So
grateful to have friends who came and visited me while I was recovering from
surgery or wrote me letters/emails/texts. So grateful to have friends who hear
me when I say I’m not doing ok as I am constantly traumatized by the brutality
of police, white vigilantes and the state. So grateful to have cool black
friends in my life to relate to and I keep making more like every month.
10. Old stomping grounds (I hate that phrase) - visited
Arkansas and the Bay Area
I hadn't really spent time in my hometown in like 6 years
til this past summer. It's only ever been painful and exhausting to return but
I felt like I needed to. I took some pretty amazing footage of my mother in
different environments and some of me exploring one of my elementary schools
that had been closed and boarded up. Months later, I'm still trying to
wrap my head around it all -- What happened? How do I feel about my family?
It had been 4 years since I brought my goofy ass to the Bay.
I don't know what took so long. I missed it so much despite how much things
have changed there. I loved seeing and hanging out with old friends. The times
I walked around alone, I'd find myself totally captivated by the hills, the
water and the cloudless sky. That shit is so pretty. Carolyn, you're a turd. I
love you!
(Failed panoramic of my mother at one of the many lakes we visited that day.)
(Grumpy on my birthday in my mom's bathroom.)
(Taken by Julia Booze. We met a puppy at Lake Merritt.)
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